Long Time not posting but I am back

It has been 3 years since I last published a blog and today I am adventuring into my blogging once more..This time I am going to continue my blogging whether I get to write every week or not remains to be seen but I am going to be blogging on life whether it be sports which I love or life in general which I also love..or whether it be my view on relationships and what makes them work or not work..all of this is not scientific but stuff that just comes from my own opinions..my own feelings and my intuition of what I am feeling at that moment in time..

Today I want to write about heart and soul and going for what you have in your heart and being open and honest with yourself and others around you..I feel that we should always try our best to be totally honest and open with others in our relationships..wow..u say? really? Yes really we should always strive for open and honest communications with one another where it be a relationship with your spouse or even just open communications with people that are your friends or coworkers..It feels good when you say you know what I want to tell you something that I haven't told you before..sometimes it is like a weight off your shoulders when you let others know how you truly feel..it is good policy to just be yourself and be open..honest and vulnerable to what ever happens..

So today my blog was short and sweet..nothing drastic..nothing big..somedays it will be longer and some days it may just be a few ramblings of my mind and what ever mood I am in..

What a way, what a way a life can be

This is the first time in a long time that I have written anything on my blog, I guess life has a funny and unusual way of giving and then taketh away? Anyway back in September I moved to a new place for a new job and new life and new career..In between I found love, I wasn't expecting to find love here, and all of sudden when I least expected it, it came into my life and now I am hanging on for dear life for my romance and my career..on ward to my career..fast forward 5 months later, I am sitting here now without a job and I wonder where the next pay check will come from and or how it will come and  I wonder what my life will be like 5 years from now? or even 10 years from now, let alone one year from now.

Do we ever wonder what really happens to us? I can see so much that has happened to me in the last year or two years and it is amazing what I have come through in my life. I never realized how much love can profoundly affect a person and now I have this amazing person in my life and I want it to continue so bad..I want this to be true and be a happy happy romantic romance that leads to a march down the wedding aisle..

I love life and I have become so much more in tune with my own spirituality and listening to my own feelings..and now I am going to pursue my dream..and somewhere down the road I will look back and say ok..that road wasnt so bumpy after all!!

Are you living in the Longing World?!?!? :)

I have been reading alot lately about a subject that is so true and dear to each of us and what we want in our lives and how we get stuck in the "longing" part of something and the longing isn't just longing for a ex to come back or "longing" for a new or better career but that longing is a desire, yes it good to have desires because desires fuel our need and want to be better a person, live a better life and have better relationships and have better jobs/careers. The longing or desire is what is keeping us from manifesting those dreams and desires.


You want to manifest that lifestyle, that job, that money, that relationship? Then you have to quit longing and start living in the NOW..get off your rocker and live in the NOW..live for the moment, live for the desire you want yes, but live in the present because it will come to you if you quit living in longing world.


Our soul wants us to be happy and to be happy we have to live in the now, create image in your mind of what you want and let it go and live in the now.Don't live with fear and constricting beliefs, live in the NOW, get rid of those things that dont allow you to live in the now; When we are ready to receieve then we'll will receive but in the meantime quit living in the longing world and get in the now world. So live in the now..don't worry about the longing..get rid of the longing and go for the now!!


Just like the Aerosmith song "Dream On"...have to sing for the moment..sing for the moment, because that is all that we really have is the present moment.

I am not afraid..I am not afraid

I am not afraid anymore, I know that I am on the right path and things are gonna be alright, things are definitely going to be alright. Recently, well make that several months ago after I lost my job, things weren't going so well and I was negative, I was down and I knew that I had to turn my life around and make a better life for me and my son. I found that by reading The Secret and learning what Law of Attraction is, that I could become a better person and not rely on others and not worry about what others perception of me is, I begin to slowly shift my beliefs and my attitudes from one of negativity to one that is more positive, happy, outgoing and ready to take on the world.

I also started to have faith in God, Universe and believe in myself. I started to look for work that I knew I was right for and I started to believe once again in myself and my beliefs! I am not afraid, I am ready to take that stand because I know that I can become what I want and achieve what I want in life, so the new song by Eminem means something because I am not afraid, I have been to that dark place, a place where I felt crushed and alone and a place where it seemed that everything was down or negative; but I am not afraid anymore..I know I can and I will!!

My 23 cents of appreciation

Recently I have been wondering about things in my life, I was really worried about a few things a day or so ago. I was so worried, nervous and practically having an anxiety attack that I had to get out of my house, so here I am going for a walk in my neighborhood in 100 degree heat at 4 pm in the afternoon trying to "sweat" out my worries and at the same time seriously risking dehydration and maybe collapsing on the streets..but after an hour or so of strolling through my neighborhood, i found 2 dimes and 3 pennies..23 cents..so what right???

Well I was out strolling through the neighborhood doing my best imitation of Conversations with God..hmm Neil Donald Walsch don't have anything on me..maybe I should write my own book called Dialogues, Monologues with God!

Well I came home and got to thinking about finding the 2 dimes, the 3 pennies and was wondering after all my talking with God on my walk that maybe it was a sign because the back of the coins all say In God, We Trust; but I figured that there had to be more to this and perhaps God was trying to talk to me in some way some how. I was thinking about this in the shower and trying to figure out if there was any meaning to this or not or if I was just being absolutely plain crazy!! Then as I am there thinking of the coins, It hit me like my shower suddenly had turned ice cold on me!! At first I thought of the 22nd psalm and then I realized I had 23 cents not 22 cents, so I as I thought 23d psalms, a chill came over me for a second and I got out and got dressed, at this point I had no idea that there was a 23 psalm or even perhaps it meant a 23 chapter in one of the books of the bible..So I found my bible laying on my kitchen counter, and I just happened to open it up and found the 23 psalm and then proceeded to read it...

Once I read it, I wasn't still sure what it all meant and then I got to talking to a friend and this friend told me this, maybe the 23d psalms is trying to tell you NOT to worry and she said what did I take from it. I think it is good sign. And finally she said...I think the right thing is coming to you the minute you stop worrying, you think your not worrying but sometimes you are, yeah I think that sign is tellin you NOT TO worry. So I think what I took away from this was not to worry and that the right things are coming to me, it is just a matter of time until they do.


The 23d psalm has often been referred to as the Shepherd's psalm, and it is considered an ode of trust and confidence in God.

So here is the psalm:
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters. Rev. 7.17
3 He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

The psalm was even used in a episode of the tv show LOST..

Friends and Relationships..release your inhibitions

There are so many of us today that are looking for friends and perhaps even looking for a friendship or more, but something we all take for granted is how fragile these friendship and our relationships with our friends truly and really is. A lot of times we worry about our own insecurities in the relationships that we develop with our friends, whether they be a friend or a girlfriend or boyfriend that we get caught up in our own insecurities that we forget to treat ourselves with the same love and respect that we want to exhibit to our friends that we lose our friend  or lose a potential relationship because we can't see beyond the realms of what our own personalities are projecting in our relationships.

We want to be loved, respected and we forget that when we are not secure and loving in our own self and our own skin that our image is portrayed to others whether we realize it or not...So we have to portray that image that we are positive and happy and when we do this, then our friends and relationships will be the way we want them to be because we are happy, positive and we being the way we want to be or the way we want people to see us..so be your self..be happy!!


This poem is dedicated to a friend of mine and this friend has been a great friend of mine!!

Poetry of the Soul



It is sad when people you know,
become people you knew,
It is one of life's tragedies when you meet someone that you know is meant to be,


But due to unexpected circumstances,
And misunderstandings becomes someone you knew,
And when you can walk right past someone that at one time in your life was a big part of your life,


And how you used to be able to talk to them for hours about the little nothings in life,
And now you can barely look at them and they at you,
And all you have left is that aching feeling in your soul.

May your relationships be the relationships that you want and get! May you be yourself and show your love to all of your friends!! So release your inhibitions

Life and Law of Attraction and Acceptance

There has been so so much written about the Law of Attraction, there are millions and millions of websites out there on Law of Attraction and what it is, and this blog entry isn't about what it is, this blog entry is more about your thought processes dictate what you are or what you are striving for. There are several great quotes I can use, and one of them I got in my email today is this: "What the mind can conceive and believe it can achieve." - Napoleon Hill

It is true, if you believe it then it will come into your existence and what your thoughts are, so believe it and believe it will happen, even your negative thoughts will only bring on more negative thoughts and energies, so concentrate on positive thoughts and concentrate on those thoughts that you want to experience and whisk away those negative thoughts, push them aside and visualize, affirm the great things that you want in your existance. Michael Beckwith from the book "The Secret " said "If you believe it, if you can see it, if you act from it, it will show up for you. That's the truth" - Michael Beckwith

So believe in your dreams...see it, believe it..Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe. Saint Augustine


Faith does not question...faith knows.

It's the repetition of affirmations that leads to belief. And once that belief becomes a deep conviction, then things begin to happen.