I am not afraid..I am not afraid

I am not afraid anymore, I know that I am on the right path and things are gonna be alright, things are definitely going to be alright. Recently, well make that several months ago after I lost my job, things weren't going so well and I was negative, I was down and I knew that I had to turn my life around and make a better life for me and my son. I found that by reading The Secret and learning what Law of Attraction is, that I could become a better person and not rely on others and not worry about what others perception of me is, I begin to slowly shift my beliefs and my attitudes from one of negativity to one that is more positive, happy, outgoing and ready to take on the world.

I also started to have faith in God, Universe and believe in myself. I started to look for work that I knew I was right for and I started to believe once again in myself and my beliefs! I am not afraid, I am ready to take that stand because I know that I can become what I want and achieve what I want in life, so the new song by Eminem means something because I am not afraid, I have been to that dark place, a place where I felt crushed and alone and a place where it seemed that everything was down or negative; but I am not afraid anymore..I know I can and I will!!

My 23 cents of appreciation

Recently I have been wondering about things in my life, I was really worried about a few things a day or so ago. I was so worried, nervous and practically having an anxiety attack that I had to get out of my house, so here I am going for a walk in my neighborhood in 100 degree heat at 4 pm in the afternoon trying to "sweat" out my worries and at the same time seriously risking dehydration and maybe collapsing on the streets..but after an hour or so of strolling through my neighborhood, i found 2 dimes and 3 pennies..23 cents..so what right???

Well I was out strolling through the neighborhood doing my best imitation of Conversations with God..hmm Neil Donald Walsch don't have anything on me..maybe I should write my own book called Dialogues, Monologues with God!

Well I came home and got to thinking about finding the 2 dimes, the 3 pennies and was wondering after all my talking with God on my walk that maybe it was a sign because the back of the coins all say In God, We Trust; but I figured that there had to be more to this and perhaps God was trying to talk to me in some way some how. I was thinking about this in the shower and trying to figure out if there was any meaning to this or not or if I was just being absolutely plain crazy!! Then as I am there thinking of the coins, It hit me like my shower suddenly had turned ice cold on me!! At first I thought of the 22nd psalm and then I realized I had 23 cents not 22 cents, so I as I thought 23d psalms, a chill came over me for a second and I got out and got dressed, at this point I had no idea that there was a 23 psalm or even perhaps it meant a 23 chapter in one of the books of the bible..So I found my bible laying on my kitchen counter, and I just happened to open it up and found the 23 psalm and then proceeded to read it...

Once I read it, I wasn't still sure what it all meant and then I got to talking to a friend and this friend told me this, maybe the 23d psalms is trying to tell you NOT to worry and she said what did I take from it. I think it is good sign. And finally she said...I think the right thing is coming to you the minute you stop worrying, you think your not worrying but sometimes you are, yeah I think that sign is tellin you NOT TO worry. So I think what I took away from this was not to worry and that the right things are coming to me, it is just a matter of time until they do.


The 23d psalm has often been referred to as the Shepherd's psalm, and it is considered an ode of trust and confidence in God.

So here is the psalm:
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters. Rev. 7.17
3 He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

The psalm was even used in a episode of the tv show LOST..